Lonly Journey

It feels like I would stuck in deep black hole...
Around me is everybody smiling und laughing and i'm also smiling but deep insite me I will just cry and sometimes I also want to die.
Around me everybody is happy and why souldn't they...
I think it is good that they don't see my inner feelings..
They would just try to help me but is it what I really want???
Nooo!!!
Even if they know they wouln't understand that it is really bad to me...
Or would they???
The dark around me makes me going crazy and let me loose the oriantation.
I lost my way behind me up the dark hole...
All the luck in the world is gone for me and nobody sees it....
Ii sit here alone and cry, just cry...
Me body is shaking and even if I'm smiling for all the others I'm just crying deep inside...
"Hello, hello, anybody out there, 'cause I can't hear a sound....."

I just want to got what they got...
I want to smile without any tears...
I want all the lovey dovey they got...
I want someone who stay at me...
I just want to be happy like they are...
But all I feel is a deep black void inside me...
Feels like nobody listen to me, even if they do...
I see me in the mirrow on the wall..
It looks I I'm happy but I know that this is just the glow...
I break inside me like a broken pane..
I#m just crying....
WHY ISN'T THERE ANYBODY WHO HELPS ME.....
WHY AM I LEFT ALONE WITH ALL THIS FUCKING PEACE OF LIVE????